A better me

a better life,

craving to be free

Free of my own mental prison

Paranoia, anxiety

seem to be the captains of my ship

Feeling everyone is out to get me

fearing death but yet refuse to believe in God

God can’t help me, no one can

Only I can aid myself


I just don’t know how

I don’t know how to trust

Don’t trust myself, don’t trust the world

Ive betrayed myself before just as others have

I’m conflicted, restricted

I am not free

I long to be